It seems like I can have a million different conversations with myself about what matters. What should come first…what takes priority.
One day, I thank God for the provision of working. The next, I worry if I will have to miss my children’s preschool recitals because of work.
One day, I thank God for our home and our cars and our clothes and our stuff. The next, I wonder if we should get rid of all of it and live in a shack and give away as much as we make.
One day, I think that being a mother is the most important responsibility I have. The next, I wonder if I am cultivating as much of a relationship with Scott as I am Emara.
One day, I thank God that I have a steady, stable and wonderful job in insurance. The next, I wonder if I should be doing something daily with my working hours that could make more of a positive impact on those who need it.
On one hand, I love to give and volunteer. On the other hand, I wonder if it is enough or if it is too much and taking away from my family time.
Put God first. Put your husband first. Put your kids first. Put yourself first. Be excellent at work but don’t be a workaholic. But also climb that ladder. But be content where you are at now. Be excellent in everything you do. But dont spend all of your time doing things there and not being present. Take pride in your home. But, don’t let the day to day TO DO list overtake your life. But make sure your yard is at least presentable so your neighbors don’t hate you. Also, build relationship with your neighbors. And while you are at it, remember that it is important to stay in close community with your friends. But remember to put your family first. And God. And don’t forget about those co-workers. And also, when you are home, it is most important to spend quality time with your kids. But make sure they have healthy meals so be sure to spend the time to cook fresh for them. But get them to bed early enough so you can spend time with your husband. And stay current on what is going on in this world so don’t neglect your reading. And make sure you get in a weekly date night. And a night for just you. And a girls night. And go to your parents house. And your in-laws. And have a couples date. And a playdate. Oh, and make sure you are involved at your local church. But don’t miss your kids school activities at night. But don’t miss worship practice either. And don’t forget to work out and take care of that body. But get your rest. But, don’t be lazy and sleep in and let a day go by that you regret not making a difference. Every second counts. But none of it matters if you don’t remember what matters most.
DOESN’T ALL OF THIS MAKE YOU WANT TO RUN AWAY?!?!
But, don’t run too fast and miss the scenery. But, run as fast as you can because it’s not worth doing if you don’t give it all you have. But don’t hurt yourself. But pain is what brings the best out in all of us. So, take a risk. But why risk it?
SEE WHAT I MEAN?!?!?!?!?!
I know what you are going to say…. I am being a little extreme.
What? Me? Never.
But, seriously, I can’t be the only one who has these arguments with myself in the car…gets overwhelmed and then decides it is time to blast Nikki Minaj instead and pretend that I am just an undiscovered rapper.
How do you handle the question of “What Matters. Most?”